“Any time that our flesh is stronger than our spirit red flags will start coming up. We must deny this flesh. We cannot let our flesh rule us”
- Pastor Paul Wilson…..these are your words right

Within the next three months my dad will be moving. He will be working for my Uncle Chris in NY. The question both my mother and my father asked each other and me as well is, “Does my dad go alone, or with the rest of my family, without me?” Knowing that without my father around my brother’s anger issues would rise up again. My mother wouldn’t feel safe in our own home. She’d be getting late night phone calls from my father and stressing herself out. You’d see it in her attitude. You’d see it in how low her level of being able to handle things would become. The last time my father was away from us I hated watching my family react like this. This is why I decided to tell my mother seriously to leave before I do. She wanted me to finish out my schoolyear in Grace Academy since it would be my last.

Yes, this means I’m moving. Where? Well -since my dad will be working in NY- New York of course. For those of you who read these comments and blog posts of Pastor Pauls that do not know me well then you wouldn’t know that I moved from NY 3 years ago unexpectedly to NC. You wouldn’t know that I joined vertical for at least a year and a half now. You also wouldn’t know that moving here was one of the hardest, but most rewarding things i’ve had to endure ever. So why move back to the place that I havce come oh so far from? Because it’s best for my family.

That scares me, worries me, and makes me very afraid. Thankfully Pastor Paul has just explained what I’ve been doing wrong while facing this. I ask of you who will read this to do one small thing for me. After reading what he wrote do not be offended. Listen to him. While you’re listening to him, that whole “lack of prayer” part that you need to fix supposedly? Yeah well while you’re keeping that conversation with God could you please possibly pray for me? Just as moving here was one of the hardest things i’ve ever had to do; so is moving away.

I will not be going to the same school with all my old friends from NY. In fact, I will be going to a brand new school that’s most likely smaller than the school i’m in now which has about 500 middle schoolers and highschoolers put together, and -probably 300 or not even- K-5 graders also besides that 500. It’s frightening. I’ll be new again for the fourth time. I’ll have no clue what’s going on and for the third time, I won’t know a soul. I need all the prayer I can get for me and my family.

I’ve loved Freedom House so much. It has been a home for me from far away. Vertical alone made me finally accept moving here. I will never forget any Freedom Housers that I have come in contact, nor those who I have grown close to. Vertical is a home like no other and is a privilage that many will not understand.

Thank you Pastor Paul for writing this. It absolutely goes along with what is going on in my life and if I do not step up and do these few things you mentioned, I know that I will continue to worry, feel scared and afraid. But by simply growing in my relationship with Jesus, it’s reassuring to know that this will all change.

I love you all. Kayla